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[Apr. 15th, 2009|08:34 pm] |
the friendship we once built together,
the promise that was made,
which i naively believed,
and held on to it.
until i see it, hear it, i believe all those were lies.
im going to get a major breakdown soon.
disappointed with my grades
disappointed with my performance in band
disappointed in not being a good friend
disappointed in being a human being in this lonely world.
first time i feel so.. fucked up.. really. fk-ed up.
somehow i dont believe in friendship.
i really hope someone will just slap in the face and wake me up from this nightmare.
how come will we feel so separated frm the rest?
i just feel im not part of the group anymore.
maybe what someone said was right, im an outcast.
indeed, i am.
it just so happens what that someone said suits my emotions now.
although it was meant for a joke.
really. damn fucked up |
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[Jan. 10th, 2009|02:01 pm] |
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it is super irritating when ppl screwed up your plans. well, people may thing that it is a joke. and they can laugh all they want. but sometimes they dint realise some jokes can cause unpleasement to people. well, what has been done is done. no point dwelling it. maybe things should be left it that way.
i just dont want to face the truth although the truth is just right in front of me. i would rather live in a dream where it is much blissful and have cheap thrills rather than facing the harshful truth. confused confused confused. |
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[Jan. 4th, 2009|12:09 am] |
       sry peiqi. ): picutre removed
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[Jan. 3rd, 2009|07:34 pm] |
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sometimes things are meant to be forgotten when it is screwed up. |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2009|03:53 pm] |
IM LAZY TO UPDATE FOR COUNTDOWN COS I KNOW SOMEONE DID THE JOB OF TELLING EVERYONE OUR 5-MEN-SHARING-A-TWO-MEN-TENT COUNTDOWN CAMP! HAHA. BUT STILL. DO VISIT![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) changebatteries FOR MORE UPDATES.
AS USUAL ME AND GARY WAS FREAKING LATE. AND PEIQI HAS THIS VERY SERIOUS EAR PROBLEM. (PROBABLY HER EARS ARE TOO SMALL). SO POOR JIAYUNseeingstarx WAITED FOR US FOR A LONG TIMMEE. SOOO SORRY. BUT ERHAO WAS LATER. HAHA
PEIQI "EH JIAYUN WHERE ARE YOU?"
JIAYUN "FAIRPRICE"
PEIQI "HUH?WHAT?BYEBYE"
LOLS. YAR. AND OUR MISS WORLDgczy BROUGHT US FIRE SPARKLERS! SWEET! HAHA WE WERE DOING THINGS VERY SLOWLY LIKE BUYING FOOD AND STUFFS. GARY WAS THE WORST! NOT GOING TO BUY DRINKS WITH HIM. HE GAVE THE WEIRDEST WEIRDEST WEIRDEST SUGGESTIONS! AT FIRST WE THOUGHT A LOT OF PPL WILL BECOMING WHICH INCLUDE AZRUL JANNAH AND KINHANG. AND NIZAM TOO. HAHA. WE SET UP OUR TENT AND OUR AREA WITH MATS AND FOOD (ALTHOUGHT I DINT HELP OUT NOR BROUGHT ANYTHING WHICH REALLY BENEFIT THE WHOLE GROUP) HAHAHA. NIZAM CAME AND JOIN US FOR A WHILE AND WENT BACK. SIGH. WE CAMWHORE IN THE TENT COS WE FELT IT WAS FRIGGING COOL. AMAZING UH? 5 OF US IN 2 MEN TENT LEH!. COUNTDOWN WAS FUN LAH. WITH ALL THOSE SPARKLERS. WE WERE SUPPOSE TO CALL THE REST OF TKUS AND CONFERENE BUT WE WERE TOO TIRED WITH THOSE JUMP SHOTS. HAHA.changebatteries IS TOO HEAVY THATS WHY LANDED TOO FAST. HAHA. AFTER THAT WE MADE OUR WISH FOR 2009 AND STARGAZED (seeingstarx ). I JUST REALISE WE ARE DAMN GREEDY PEOPLE CAN? WE WERE THERE WISHING FOR 5MINUTES BUT STILL NOT ENOUGH FOR US!!!!! HAHAHA. GREEDY. AND WE PLAYED CARDS TO SURVIVE THROUGH THE NIGHT. changebatteries WAS LIKE SAYING "EH TAKE CARE OF MY DISNEY CARDS K?" AND THE NEXT FEW MOMENTS, SHE SAW HERSELF SQUASHING HER DISNEY CARD COVER. I THINK I AM DAMN PRO COS I THINK I WON MANY ROUNDS.
THEN SLOWLY ONE BY ONE WE FELL ASLEEP.changebatteries BROUGHT TOILET ROLL AND IT ENDED IN MY HOUSE! I AM GOING TO RETURN TO HER SOON. THEN THE GUYS SLEPT OUTSIDE. I THINK IM THE ONLY HUMAN OUTSIDE. COS THE 2 OTHER CREATURES WERE LIKE SNORING AND SOUNDED LIKE PIGS. I WAS FREAKING COLD EVEN THOUGH I HAD PEIQI TKGS SHIRT AND TOWEL. SO I WRAPPED MY ARMS WITH TOILET ROLL TO KEEP MYSELF WARM. HAHA. BUT IT WAS DAMN USELESS. GARY TOOK MY BLANKET AWAY LAH. KNS. HE GOT NATURAL BLANKET NOT ENOUGH STILL TAKE MINE. MY NATURAL BLANKET IS SO TINY LAH. GRR WHEN I CAME BACK OF THE TOILET, THEY ARE HIDING IN THE TENT LOR. HAHA. THE WE SLEPT IN AN AWKWARD POSITION.
 
that is jiayun carrying me!
the two __ are sleeping in the tent. and the tent was shaking vigorously. wonder what are they up to
  
yes thats the toilet roll im talking abt. and im going to return it to peiqi for extra self prac on monday
we had 600++ photos on that day. before being filtered by peiqi. haha. so yup. nice countdown. next year we are going to have the smae thing but a bigger tent! i want a tent too!
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[Jan. 3rd, 2009|02:53 pm] |
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XMAS UPDATES okay. i know xmas is over but i just feel so much abt the xmas party we had at vionna's party. and as usual, timothy was late. haha. all of us wore slippers and i think the theme for this year's xmas theme hasnt change which is still "lok kok" haha. we played partnered bridge which means 2 of us sharing one set of cards. because we have lack of decks. and yar. i almost became the loser duo with timothy. hahahaha. but then since xmas is a season of joy, we shall ignore who are the losers cos everyone is a winner! haha! (so cliche)
the food was great and i think all of us did a relatively good job in clearing all the food. after that we had cheesecake made by yingying and chips.and of course, we dint want to miss our little nonya. so we watched it together. haha. then we had our zodiac outing and we are gladly to announce that we had expanded with 2 addition to our big zodiac family. JIAHAO AND TIMOTHY. haha. it is great with them to join us!
im still hoping if we have a chinese new year celebration somewhere too. hhaahaha
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[Dec. 22nd, 2008|09:18 pm] |
this post is dedicated to my lab partner simtech linh. well, we had hell loads of fun during the attachment.long lunch break, sleeping break, tea break, facebook break, newspaper break, chit chat break and camwhore breaks!. so many breaks! so shiok lah! our professors more shiok. mine changed my research plan 2 days before i end my research. which made me panic like crazy. haha. and hers is worse! her professor is the creator of some software and basically, he had forgotton to use the software and thus, linh cant do a proper research! and obviously, her results will not tally with the simulated ones. rawr! hahaanyway, everythere was so awesome.cos i had a happy timeirritating the receptionist aunty down there
day1
Lady: where are you going? whre is your pass?
Me: *takes out pass* sorry
day2
Lady: who are you? where are you going? where's your pass?
Me: my pass is here. can i go nw? it very irritating. cos she has been giving me irritations during the attachment
day3
Lady: where are you going? pass?
Me: toilet
Lady: show me your pass first
Me.: here lah!
Lady: *nags while i enter the toilet*
day4
Lady: YOU cant pass here you know? where is your pass?
Me: my pass is outside of my pocket, cant you see?
Lady: who are you looking for?
Linh: Dr Zhao Li Ping
Lady: who is Dr Zhao Li Ping?
Linh: Our professor. Dr Zhao lor
Lady: who is she?
Dr Zhao: (from second floor) erm, please let the students up
Linh: That's Dr Zhao LiPing
HAHAH. COME ON. I THINK THE LADY IS OUT TO DISTURB US LOR. LINH WAS BEING TOLERANT TO ANS HER WHEN I JUST WALKED IN TO THE LIFT IGNORING THE LADY. HAHA
pure irritating. yawn. sleeping soon. shall update more soon!
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[Dec. 22nd, 2008|09:02 pm] |
I know supernova is long long long over, but the spirit hasnt end there. This is probably our last time serving for supernova because next year, more things will be awaiting for us. (: Well, since most of the zodiac ppl will be blogging abt what had happened, i shall blogged how i really feel throughout the whole camp. hah.
the camp started on 28th and ended on 1 but i left on 30th night. haha. well, even though it was just a mere three days, i just realise we had done a lot of crap, work, and shitty jobs. haha. the thing is, no matter how shitty the job is, as long as we are doing it together, as a team, it will still be interesting and fun (: I remember how i screwed up the nightwalk. too much confusion and misunderstandngs here and there and made many disappointed. but thank goodness, everything is over. the discussion circle was really powerful, it really made us throw how we truly felt during the camp and made us like some pro facilitators of the camp. it is seriously damn fun to be working with everyone. (hopefully they enjoy working with me cos im quite slack. it is not that i dint try. its just that, im really suck at planning this for camp. no creative juice) haha. and most imptly, working with the zodiacs! so glad to see most of them! it really cheers me up to have this camp with them. if not for the attachment, i would have stayed longer till the end of the camp. it was rather touched to see the poly students, staying awake overnight to study during the camp for the exam the next day. their sacrifice for the camp made the exams-kiasued me very touched. yup.
ZODIAC! new tshirts and more outings. (: haha |
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[Nov. 25th, 2008|10:06 am] |
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Supernova camp is coming soon. 4more days!
As well as those people going for japan trip. Have fun. I dont know why I still cant get over with the fact that i got transferred to saxophone. sigh. anyway, TKUS, have fun. LOLS. i dont even know if TKUS still exist. LOLS. AAhh.. i missed all those camwhoring session together. (: i will miss you all of you!
asia conference was quite amazing. lols. since i had missed one part of service in the morning, the afternoon session was quite blur to me. but it was still fun. yup.
Why is no one commenting? I bet they are packing their bags or practising their instruments or preparing their logistic or cell groups or having fun out there when im trapped in the west side of singapore. TSK! bad boys and bad girls. |
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[Nov. 20th, 2008|01:10 am] |
Attachment was fun at NTU. Although the journey is long and tiring, the ppl are very fun. The supervisors taught as some basics and dump us there for reading. So it was pretty much of independent work! My research partner is so cool. She is from RJ and she dont sounds like one! Basically, till now, for these 3 days we have been spending 85% talking and sleeping (Yes, you can sleep in NTU library and when you wake up you can see more heads sleeping with you) and 15% working. It is not that we are slacking just that some programs couldnt start up and something wrong with the internet connection. Anyway, they blocked out websites that related to games so no games in SIMTech. Sooner or later, i think they will block Facebook too because Hanh Linh and I were like facebooking once in a while.
It sounds easy to do a reasearch but it is tough to understand some science journals or scientific works. It is like attending GP lessons in SIMTech. Despite knowing every single individual word, when you put them all in a sentence, it doesnt make sense to you. So we were pratically spending time trying to decipher what the person is trying to say.
Anyway, I was reading STOMP forum and came upon this comment on the incident of the birthday bash of an ACJC girl.
The STOMPer typed:
wow ACJC have an excellent principal who can cover up everything man.. well done.. a good sch with a gd principal
when the principal's birthday? we can celebrate for her too..
this article can be found at : http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=41976
anyway, to digress, NTU food is really cheaper. Cheaper than MJC. A bowl full of Jap food worth $3.50 and it is definitely filling where MJ food is like more expensive with miserable amount. tsk! Hanh Linh really change my impression of a typical RJ girl.
oh yar. she is not from RJ anymore. she is from RIJC (senior) haha. i dint realise until she told me that RJC has merged with Ri and become RIJC.
Some times, i just one to proof to someone that she made a wrong decision. Her wrong decision caused unhappiness within us. 'Stripping' off what you are and placing you into some where else where your interest doesnt lies. Isn't it condemning you? I think 1 person will know what it means.
someone said something really nice yesterday that keeps me smiling till now (: i will miss you and you must miss me too! It's an order! haha
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[Nov. 15th, 2008|07:47 pm] |
I realised I havent been taking pictures for a LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG time. Argh! Anyway, things are going to get busy for me.
Science focus is fun! Met new friends there, ogled at some hot chicks there (im not the only guy that ogle at them okay? Yiqian and jason did too okay?) Well, it wasn't that tiring in fact some of the lectures are interesting. From the lectures I realised that you have to pay 200% of attention on the lecturer. In this way, you will then absorb 100% of knowledge. You know why? If you get lecturers with very thick accent, you will have trouble understanding what they say. If they tend to speak quickly/ softly it will make it more difficult for you to comprehend what they say. So just pray hard that my lecturers do not have thick accent but clear crisp voice. It will be a bonus if they are some hot stuffs too. =D
shit! i think i missing the science focus ppl and nus canteen food. i forgot to ask their emails. *sad face* i think i have to ask around for their emails. and we forgot to camwhore! *pouts and frown*
anyway, i think qianqian is weird. i asked her what to wear for church tmr and she told me to wear jersey for service. So i asked her if any type of jersey is it? then she said "sports one" i was like -.- since when which jersey is not sports one. LOLS. funny lil girl.
i feel so bad because i dint manage to send joshua and chinhui off because i was really busy at nus that day. sorry! but then, i did try to call/ talked to josh before he left. because im his good friend. i think he wont miss me because he has my handphone with him now and if he misses me, he can just look at my handphone. haha. dont lose my handphone hor!
had supernova games trial in the afternoon just now. and it was cool to see all those sec sch friends (: missed them loads.
it is exam periods of those people in uni. GOOD LUCK! (: and it is time to rejoice for those who had finish their A levels!
i really love oboe. and i hope and pray that i can go back to oboe. i dont mind if i get kicked out of syf. i just want to play oboe. |
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[Nov. 11th, 2008|10:07 pm] |
some updates (:
well, life is gonna be more eventful and busy during the holidays
1) Reasearch attachment at NTU (4hours trip in total per day)
2)YEC Supernova Camp
3) Science Focus
4) Revision and holiday assignments.
well, congrats shaowei getting through the first round of auditions! Work hard!
Sorry Adler, I misread your message! i thought you are going to. erm some place on the 18th November. but actually you are coming back on 18th November. LOLS!
Jed, invite me to your house more often. i want to play with your dogs
urgh. im not willing to give up my oboist dream. maybe after my a levels or now, i shall take lessons from jeremy or something. erm. sharyn, if you are reading this, im not saying sax is bad. just some personal preference. haha. im going to miss band soon. i miss those orchestral music.
i dont know why ppl view me differently now when i tell them i went to church. i mean, it is not wrong to have your own religion right? is religion an obstacle for frienship? just some random thoughts.
anyway, meeting up new friends is definitely fun and the ppl there are uber friendly (: and i learnt that we must be nice to ppl and shldnt outcast them so i must be nice.. ((: |
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[Nov. 5th, 2008|11:24 am] |
Oral Presentation is finally over, Im so frigging happy and damn screwed la. My Q&A session was pretty screwed up.. Next up, some teacher said my group wasnt the best, and we are not of standards compared to other classes ):
sigh, it's all over. i feel like giving up at times.. seriously. im so scared that if i cant get A for PW. 100% A for pw for 101, is it achieveable? rawr!
for my holidays i need to:
1) tan
2) buck up on my studies
3) read my research stuffs
4) finish eragon (book)
5) catch up with secondary school friends
6) shop for more clothes
7) erm.... still thinking of it. TSK. continue on the next post
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[Nov. 2nd, 2008|08:33 pm] |
Does this look scary enough for halloween?
tsk. thanks peiqi. (:
OKAY LAH. i removed that pic already. dont angry k?? TSK. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2008|06:08 pm] |
I love this pic. i love my oboe. and i emphasize. it is MY oboe
TSK! i love my ex section and i do love my current section too.
but i still dislike a little her, and i think she knows it too
good luck for A levels seniors, good luck to CHRISTINE SIYING ANQI GRACE (:
Thanks for all the replies you all gave. quite touching. TSK.
ONCE YOUR JUNIOR, FOREVER YOUR JUNIOR. haha
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[Oct. 30th, 2008|11:13 pm] |
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Seriously, i think I'm going to screw up my chinese. im preparing to retake. all im aiming is just a B. 60-69.5. is it so difficult? aahh..
passage1 : relatively easy
passage2 : the passage was tough i can even read the options. TSK
passage3 : the passage was freaking easy. but the free response qns (basically all the qns in this passage free response qns) is f.difficult.
jumps down
i feel so... annoyed again. hmm. nice swim at daniel house and nice smuggling into condos playing basketball and soccer. finally i can stop all these problems from pestering me for a moment. sigh...... |
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[Oct. 23rd, 2008|06:44 am] |
AH. i shldnt have rashly.
i pray hard i can stil in oboe. but if really i have to change i will be damn sad. i dont want to end up switching instruments again and again. im hate to change instruments especially when i took uber long time to relearn something different. calling me to change instrument is just like condemning me, it is like calling me to quit band but stay in band just for the sake of it. rawr. i hate it.
why am i transferred? am i really worse than him? maybe i am. i just feel so unfair. why must i always lose out to him? i hate it. it is not like i dont put in effort. in actual fact. i did. i tried. sometimes the notes couldnt come out right because i want it to be as soft as possible such that im the only one that can hear it. so that ppl wont laugh at my tone. but i tried to improve from there. no one sees it. (okay lah. maybe there is)
the impression of changing instrument is like "oh, you change instrument ah? why? you cannot play oboe is it?" it will be damn hurting to hear that after 3 years of oboe-ing. even if they dont say it, i bet they have this idea deep down in their heart somewhere. sigh
and vincent is not going to act rashly. if he quits band, he will have no where to go. ):
maybe pokkiang is right.
1) she might be joking
2) sax might be fun too.
i hope pokkiang i really right too....... hopefully. |
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[Oct. 17th, 2008|09:41 pm] |
WRITTEN REPORT IS OVER. ohh yeaahh.. we are so going to get A's. I must really thanks sandy for her hardwork being the group leader. i guess for our ORAL PRESTENTATION we shldnt stress her too much. ((:
hmm. i think i need to get real mature now instead of being so childish. rawr. i musnt be too passive. rawr. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2008|01:02 am] |
Argh, I have been typing and retyping what i want to say. My thoughts are all tied up. My emotions are so messed up. I dont want those people to leave out of my class!!! i want them to promote together as the class. without these wonderful peeps, i might not have survived through events such as teachers day prep and openhouse and so on. I need your support, i need those laughters we had, i need those bitchings and gossips we had. Please, dont give up. I really hope we will be able to succeed together.
as S say, it is selfish for us to hold them back. maybe, the other path is more suitable for them, and by holding them back, we are preventing them of succeeding. but since we have made it these far, im sure everyone of you people can do it. A's are nothing. we can achieve it if we put in the effort, the correct strategy, the right exam skills and everything. Take it as im begging you peeps, dont drop. Leading this class is fun for now. if you guys are going to leave, who will be my support? Please. Stay in 101.
I really hope all of us will promote as one going into the same class next year. if im selfish, sorry, i just cant bear to see you guys leave. but if you guys really really really really really really really really to the power of infinity times hope to drop to any H1, i will stop insisting everyone remaining in 4H2.
i reflect on myself, am i a bad leader thats why i am not able to bring you guys up and promote together as one? is this the case? have i failed to be a leader? im not sure.. |
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[Oct. 5th, 2008|11:00 pm] |
Haha. It has been a long time since I blogged. Probably due to post examination stress. HAHA. I hope I can at least be promoted to 4H2 combinations, meaning still remain in 08S101. I dont want to retained. I feart of being retained. I dont know what's into me I'm very sure that those who are reading this must be wondering why am I feeling like this when promos is long over. Well, I myself do not know either. I have been having sleepless nights and nightmares of my promo results. Im too scared to face my own results. I dont know if i readlly did my best. I was too nervous when the paper was lying on my table. AHH! how i wish someone, somebody out there can listen to me.
everyone have been busy with their own stuffs, including me. Out of a sudden i miss the band peeps. I know i may seem to say "Aiyah, can dont need to go band la" or smile and laugh when I found a way to excuse myself from band practice, but deep down, i wanted to be part of you peeps. I really missed you people. dont know if you guys/girls feel the same way too.. The thing that is further separate us is gonna be the japan trip. I really hope to be with you guys too. Really miss you people. Shit. i miss those camwhoring sessions and those noises that we make, those laughters we used to had. Maybe you all still have them, just without me. RAWR! why do i sound so emo? LOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLLOLLOL
must be the release of promos results tmr, darn, im frigging nervous now... SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH AND MORE SIGHS.
i miss those prss people too. that very friday, i saw shihan walking to school, that moment, flashbacks, those happy moments with her in sec sch days ccheered me up. It is quite irony to find all those loud arguements we had, quite amusing. i stil lremember the zodiac and the fun we had together as a clique. gosh. i love to have cliques, because it really gave/give security and support to me ((:
we shall meet up real soon. ((:
to the one who is cooking chicken, please dont make it explode ((: |
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